Going on an adventure

I've been reading loads of wedding related material lately and whilst I'm getting loads of inspiration its also made me realise... I have no idea what I want. I suppose its the same for many bride-to-bes, but even then they must have some sort of inkling as to what their tastes are. I don't. The one thing that both Ryan and I agree on is that our Wedding should be a reflection of who we are and the love that we share. I just don't know what that is. I don't feel like we have enough life experience to make ourselves the centre of such a big day. For instance, the flowers, I'd love them to be symbolic of a moment or experience that we've shared and for that to be so we need to have actually shared a significant moment or experience. Not that we haven't already, but most of our days are lost sat in front of the computer or TV. We'd have to have daffodils as our wedding flowers because they grew in the front garden once.


For those reasons I want the next few years in the run up to our Wedding to be an adventure. Then, when the day actually rolls around, we can share everything that we've discovered with all the people we love. Now that's my dream wedding day.

Another great thing about the wedding day being so far in the future is that it gives me plenty of time to get into shape. As well as limited life experience, an expanded waistline is also a side effect of nights spent glued to the box. I need to completely overhaul my relationship to food and exercise if I'm going to look good for my big day. I'm uncomfortable being the centre of attention as it is and I avoid going out because I'm uncomfortable with the weight I've gained in the past few years. The proposal almost didn't happen because I felt too insecure to travel all the way to London and be around so many people. Obviously I really need to change that in time for the Wedding because I don't want to have a meltdown the night before! So, to try and push myself to lose weight I'm going to start a separate blog for my weight-loss so I don't end up filling my wedding planning blog with posts about detox and exercise. I want this blog to be something I can look back on and show friends and family.

I'll come back in a few days and post the link to my weight loss blog.